Monthly Archives: September 2014

Dear Sophia Alexandra

Dear Sophia Alexandra
It’s been an eternity since I have been able to hold you. Yet it’s only yesterday that I held you. I don’t know where this year has gone. And believe me I can’t remember either. I take a lot of pictures so I will remember what we did with Giovanna the year you died. I don’t remember much of anything. But I remember you And your smell and your touch and your voice and all the things that you did. Did past tense. I hate that when I talk about you it’s in pasts tense. I know you are very much alive with in all of us. I feel you. I smell you. I can hear you. I just miss you. I just miss you terribly. I miss your laughter and silliness with Giovanna. I miss your morning smiles. And how you used to get my glasses and say morning mommy here’s your glasses. I miss our crazy and lazy days. When we would just watch tv or read or go to the supermarket. Your fav store because you wanted shawcolate. I miss rocking you on the rocker. I miss how you and Giovanna would cuddle at night in your pajamas and watch peppa pig or Bernstein bears together. I miss watching Giovanna teach you everything. She misses you soo very much. It’s very hard to watch her pain. I know you are here helping us to learn to live. But we just miss you. As the year anniversary of your death comes creeping up on us. We become anxious and sad and look for ways to celebrate you and us. We are going rock climbing again. We are going to over come hurdles we never imagined trying to jump over. You have enriched our lives more than anyone could have know. You have taught us so much in such a small amount of time. Thank you Sophia. Thank you for loving us and being silly with us and enjoying life with us. Thank you for watching over us and keeping us safe and healthy. Thank you for being ours.